A Scream You Can’t Drown Out

I'm such a contradiction.
I want someone to adore me,
But push away any love I feel.
I want someone to notice me,
But I hide in the shadows instead.

Save me from my own thoughts
Of doubt and insecurities.
Stop me from limiting myself
And incarcerating my mind.

Give me a reason to believe in myself.
To create a world with a different cliché.
Where my ideas are turned into actions,
Instead of a ridiculed pile of deceit.

This life I’ve tried to live,
Has been one of feeling second-best.
These days that I endure,
Have become a dreadful punishment

I can't run away from my mind.

Save me from my own thoughts
Of doubt and insecurities.
Stop me from limiting myself
And incarcerating my mind.

Give me a reason to believe in myself.
To create a world with a different cliché.
Where my ideas are turned into actions,
Instead of a ridiculed pile of deceit.

Until then I’ll just wait incessantly,
Longing for the future and resenting the past.
For my thoughts are a burden I must carry
Until the very end of eternity.